forget it, pal.

I know the story, I've seen the picture
It's written all over your face
You have called me when you were just lonely

What's the secret
That you've been hiding

Like you have mean every words you said

but it's ended like ash.

Can't believe that I'm the fool
And I who thought you were my friend,
How was I to know?
You never proof me..

I should've read the signs
Anyway...I guess it's over.

heartbreak.

Mum went to get her report scan, accompanied with Dad and I. Dad and Mum were much worrying and anxious during the waiting for doctor.

Well, doctor said there.
‘The scan of the liver… that shows the parts where a ‘shaded circle’ is getting bigger, it’s growing. Arg. But we can’t really confirm anything that it’s coming back. Yet I advise to do another kind of scanning…’

Hays my heart sink. She had been going though this once before. Is there a need?

I’m down, deeply sad.
Nothing interests me.
Never love.
I lose confidence again.

os: if i dun reply any msgs of yours, pls dun blame me. i gonna better soon.

Not enough?

All right, i know i need more practices. Argh.

you've got that face off crime-watch baby. (:

Happy whatever day.

There are always having gatherings for some special days. Father’s day. I decided to buy a cake for Dad. I messaged June before the day.

Hey sis. tmr’s father’s day.
Cause’ hardly sees u around.
hoping u could just join us for dinner tmr night.
Ur son, Daren’ll be around too.
See u soon,
miss u- js.

She replied to me after a few minutes.

Hey girl, I know it’s father’s day.
But I got some matters to settle
so most probably I wun join u guys for dinner
yet I still will be back home at afternoon.
Sorry and thaks btw.
miss u too- ju.

I knew she wouldn’t come for night. But at least I think Dad would not be upset with the dinner outside for him. And my cake did favour him.


:For my dearest Dad,
I know u will not read my blog there, cause’ u dun knows how to use the net. But I just want to tell ‘no ones’ there. U r truly great Dad. U get easily heated at times, especially when overwork. I tried to understand because’ u r doing for the family. During the times, when Mummy were staying at hospital for more 2 months, u never left the place and stayed 24-hours protecting Mummy. U doesn’t give up anything. I know my driving skills are terribly sucks. But no matter what, u still has me to drive the cars. And sometimes, your yelling reminded me mans. Agrh.

I love u, Dad.
happy father's day– j.s


os: my neighbour louis, although your Mum shares the same name I have, please dun call me gigi or whatever... Maybe something good ah? Yup, catch up with u soon, very soon bro. :)

okay, beautiful man.

Got bored at the afternoon. Helen and me thought granting that if
the next life

we were guys.
MEN who need women, while women need us.

IF i were man,

Sunshine guy and good in sport.
I definitely got a whole bunch list of girls' numbers,
Write good romantic love letters,
Roses are red..
Place my bills for the candlelight dinners,
for all my ladies.



in my next life.

os: Believe me.