My political matter.

It really sucks telling all whole me to control my emotion. I don’t why. I just can’t be. I’m so disappointed and depressed. Things were always so happening usually connected Shawn, My bro Jack, and his idiot PC.

Shawn promised himself to help Jack to fix up his desk computer. It seems likely a helpful person doing his job. Yeah, I must be rather glad he would do that. BUT, there is always a BUT. I started to refuse my Jack when he kept doing his dirty business on the net daily. Whatever things he does I really have no interest to know. He has NO job, no school, no playmate, and no goal. And he has a lot of bad habits… such as chatting on the phone until midnight 4. Yes, you’ll ask who he’s talking to so late at night. No ones know and he can’t care to tell.

Back his girlfriend, Mei Ling. She could stand my brother nonsense and followed his stupid ‘Orders’. And yet, play boy can’t stop fling his other girl-friends. My dad told me he went up and scolded Jack when he saw Jack slapped Mei Ling. WTH!

This night, Shawn came to my home because of Jack’s network couldn’t connect. We have dinner together, with my sister, June and Ray. While dining, I mentioned about my back-acne problem get worse after using T-3. I don’t understand why Shawn gets annoyed about this. Why yah?

What’s up? I’m in wrong because of what?

I was confused.

Shawn had fuss up with Jack latter. Jack didn’t keep his promise to work after Shawn helped him to purchase the PC. I kept quiet and BLUR.
And Jack shouted me out of his room. WHAT? Out of his room? That is plain ridiculous. Shawn kept quiet. I just wanna dead in front of him.

I was confessed.

I was varying to help any but I don’t know what. I don’t know anything about route and stupid Adapter. I just went in and out despite Jack disallowed me going into his room. I WAS WONDERING WHY I CAN’T?

I was useless.

Most probably yes.

I cried and tried to call any of friends while I was so depressed.
What an upset I couldn’t find any of them! So late I guess they have slept. Ahhhhh!

I was hopeless.

Shawn determined to finish and solve everything. It was late at 1.30 a.m.
Everyone was silent and I know I was indifferent.
Shawn went home, and asked him to msg me while he was backing home.

He was disappointed with me. Well, He means regret knowing me. He can’t accept my behaviors just now. I might don’t understand him or likewise he doesn’t understand me. OMG.

After all,

I was the big-loser.

I have no confidence.
I have no goal.
I have less knowledge.
I have sibling rivalry.
I have lost love…

Oh gosh, Jess Jess you're in the mess. fU.

All fine. Now is 4 am and so I can't sleep... and the telephone is still on, someone is using the phone.