Road drip.

My last nightmare never be work out. I have no ideas. Hating me and questioning of nowhere, got my license a year back. And until now I still can’t get my ass out of the busy site! I’m really fucked up.

It is good that Dad expect me to drive on my own, so he could catch better time. He brought 3 front seats car which really prefer to my taste but couldn’t wonder I just can’t cope with itself baby. Like Shawn told me, I’m small, (I think he wanted to say SHORT instead) yet I have a huge car to holding on. Anyway, my younger cousin is all the way out the road after got his car license.

I even managed to pass several semis at once... heart pounding, death grip on the steering wheel... but I didn't brake or slow down. I did have a moment of panic when someone was right on my tail but all I did was tap my brakes GENTLY to let them know that they didn't have to follow so close and kept on driving.
I just couldn’t drive within my own judgment and thinking. It’s green and it going to turn yellow and then, the red light soon.
Should I just have my time turning smoothly right at the junction or should I just stop after I saw the green turned yellow in a few minutes?

I can’t why I hate big cars, big trucks, big Lorries, big buses and whatever vehicles stand up much higher than me. And they were like so near me.
Like squeezing my space out of breath, yes I can’t breathe.

There's no backing out. I think I'll be okay. I really have been trying to use the R.O.A.D. technique and also, telling myself to take a bite out of the elephant. Won't it be nice when we can all drive without a thought as to whether we're going to panic?!

Wow, that sounds like a lot to handle.
‘All the more reason to slow down, breathe, and be sure to do the exercises.’
It's times like this that you have to force yourself to be kind to yourself.

Baby, I’ve tried my best.